dear beloved,,
one day i had decided that i would conquer the whole world tomorrow,, and indeed, i really was going to sit at my desk when comes the tomorrow,, and plan the whole gig,,
however in that case,, i would be able to conquer the whole world only the day after tomorrow,, i realized sadly, then i had to quickly change my mind,, and declared that i would conquer the whole world the day after tomorrow,, as now i was already been busy with my arrival,,
then later on the same day, i arrived at her near,,
and as i now arrived at her near,, i started waiting like a child secretly waiting to be waken up by the kisses of his parents before the last morning he was 7,, i was hoping she would appear,,
she did not appear, nor put her head over my shoulders
suddenly, and without saying a word after all the years,,
but how beautiful was waiting she,, how beautiful waiting near,,
i arrived at her near and waited she at her nearer and the sun was feeling nearer the clouds were nearer,, there were people in balloons riding the sky,, and when they’d look down though in between their legs,, on the ground, people would appear,, i started writing love letters even,, i've told myself that i would write forty fifty love letters,,
to my dear beloved,,
i arrived at your near, and started waiting for you like a lost child who had forgotten to stop running away in a tag game he used to play with his father,
i arrived at your near, hoped you'd appear and put your head over my shoulders
suddenly,, and without saying a word after all the years i've cried my tears,,
how beautiful was waiting she,, how beautiful was waiting near,,
i was sleeping dreams after dreams even,,
dreaming for all this time you've always been nearer in our stories entangled,,
already torched the heart with your fire, started waiting for me right behind my eyes, to be seen through my shames and fear
dreaming a place,, full of she,,
she,, in the sun appearing near, she in the clouds that were nearer
where,, the people riding the sky was she,,
and where the mountains near was no one other
how beautiful was waiting she, how beautiful was her near,,
torched heart, torched the eyes,,
my body was so good at catching your fire,,
now seeing the whole world on fire,, i cancelled my plans for the day after tomorrow,,
,, i decided i've never wanted to conquer the whole world ever anyways,,
after all the years of waiting,, sleeping dreams and crying my tears, it seems i lied to speak this love letter, i concluded.
photography by Sarah van Rij
